Why I Suck

God dammit. I have sent the last 2 hours typing and deleting a million different paragraphs and sentences trying to accurately portray what I want to say. I'm beginning to think I don't really have shit to say right now. I cannot seem to find any sort of lasting focus this week. I have now typed and deleted the letter "I" over 10 times in attempts to form a new sentence. So far nothing yet. I'm just gonna post this now and try this again later.